Moving past fear into self

practicing for my debut on Sould getting out of my own way and get on with it no matter what I do better interacting with people as higher self comes through more easily to impart wisdom as needed and that will come ... practice practice practice getting past my insecurities to do as I was " reminded" to do in 2015 as I sat crunched in the corner of the shower in tears of exhaustion from that years events feeling I couldn't take anymore - I wanted to be done. I heard the voice within simply say " show" and although I cringed there afterwards I knew it was the next step stemming from all the past " guidance " I had gotten learning about many healing modalities that would one day mean something. Caring for my father as he prepared to exit this life while I fought for him --taught me much more. I would continue to use in my own life to help heal myself. and now after going through my own dark night of soul after my parents died- exposing the truth and my scars from a life marked by sexual abuse, codependence and a misidentity I thought I'd be ready to answer that call. Three different opportunities presented itself to begin this journey but each one was not the right for me. There was a producer wanting to distribute a documentary on my experiences with sexual abuse but it went Weinstein and I saw it as me presenting myself still as a victim. so no I was accepted for a work out show because of my story but a wrestling injury saved me from what was unfolding there and my health was more important so no. Doing a show to me meant a cable show and a friend showed me around Cox turns out she had a show in the 80s who knew! But again so not ready and that was before my parents deaths, dark night of soul and the great awakening now! my son suggested baby steps like YouTube and I knew I wanted a webpage but I had so much more to get through first. the confidence was just not there yet I didn't think I would fight myself this much on getting a presence out there to help others learn about metaphysical and healing stuff. I am passionate about it empowering people now more than ever. I've always been better caring or speaking out for others in advocacy than for me. so there it is my scary bits out of the bag so to speak and for all to see I've had the website parked for 2 years now and discussions with one web person after another each with their vision but I will get there anyway lots of love

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